Facing The Scales

I woke up this morning with an unusual urge to face the scales.  I used to get on them every morning with ease, but when I stop, I'm in denial.  As I wrote before, I am an emotional eater and with that struggle, wouldn't you know, my life has been in an emotional roller coaster for the past 2 months.  And with all the emotional trials, of course, I've put weight back on.

I spend quite a bit of time in prayer each day and because of that, I have seen (blessings) happen in my life and one of them was losing all my added weight from the break-up of my marriage.  I have learned that by tithing (giving the first portion of my income to God) that even if there is not enough money in my checkbook to live on the rest of the month, God always blesses me in the most unusual way and I always have what I need when I need it.  I have also learned that I can't fix everything in my life and that I can live in peace if I am willing to let it go and allow God to have complete control of the situation.  I've learned that I don't have to be perfect to be loved by God, He loves me just the way I am and that He is a loving God and wants a relationship with me.  He's not looking at us angrily waiting for us to mess up so we can go to hell.  He's our biggest cheering fan rooting us on to fight the fight and finish the race a wiinner.  I have also learned that God doesn't expect us to do big wonderful things, He's happy with the small things we can do to help and love others,  He is happy when we respect Him by being around the Lord's Table to say. . ."Thsi bread represents your sweet body and the fruit of the vine represents the blood you shed as a peerfect sacrafice for my sins."  The biggest thing I think I have learned is how to properly talk to God through prayer.  I talk to him like you would talk to your best friend, discussing everything, making plans, asking advice, and praising Him for His Awesomeness and can I say, without you thinking I'm a nut, I can feel His presence.  As I wrote before, I've always been a wife and mother, and even though my son is currently with me, it's been a big adjustment being alone.  But I have never felt alone.  God's presence is always with me.

Back to the scales, as I scould myself for putting back on some weight I say . . . "God has taught you so much about yourself and brought you so far, why haven't you allowed Him to have control of this area in your life?  And you know, it's a lack of faith, I'm being selfish expecting that I can take care of that area myself, but for some reason, I still am hanging on to my self-protection of rejection by my weight.  I'm disappointed in myself because I really do want to be freed in this area.  There are so many things I want to do for His kingdom and I don't need any baggage, that way I have both hands free to do His "destiny for me".  I've been praying about this area for a while now and yesterday, I spent some very long and deep prayer asking God to help me let go of this area of my life and I don't know if I will be successful letting go, but I will keep praying until I do.  Something happened this morning that is promising.  When I usually wake up in the morning I say . . ."Good morning Lord, what are we going to do today".  And this morning I woke up with (get on the scales) on my mind, today we are going to start our new journey of faith.  And of course, I could not believe that I was actually happy about it.  So now, God and I are going to be in bootcamp for a while, he's going to run me through the obstacle course of faith, He's going to show me that I have the ability to make it over the hurdles, through the mazes, through the waters of life and when I cross the "finish line" with His help, I'll be ready to move on to my assignment, I'll have my diploma that says I have succeeded and am ready for my new assignment from Him.  You know, life is difficult and we all have many obstacles that we have to face daily.  The only way to really work for the "finish line" is to work on one area at a time and don't take it on yourself, things go so much better if you have a partner who cannot fail, and it goes better when your (partner or captain) is cheering you on, knowing that He loves you unconditionally and He's always on your side.

What are the things in your life that are dragging you down, are you tired of dealing with them?  I am!  Let's get started on freeing up our lives one thing at a time.  If you are willing to do that, you will gradually feel successful and have peace in your heart (maybe not in your life) but your heart.

I know if I can truly have faith that God will help me deal with this area, I'll be free, and freedom is a great place to be.

Matthew 9:20-22 says.. .And suddenly a woman who had a flow of blood for twelve years came from behind and touched the hem of His garment.  For she said to herself, "If only I may touch His garment I shall be made well."  But Jesus turned around, and when He saw her He said, "Be of good cheer daughter, your faith has made you well."  And the woman was made well from that hour.

You know re-reading this scripture enlightened me more about the story, it wasn't the touch, it was the faith of the touch.  We don't  have Jesus here physically to make us well, but we don't need that anyway, the faith is what we need. He will heal us through our faith in believing He will heal us.

We have exactly the same opportunities for healing as they did back then with a couple exceptions, she didn't have salvations yet because Jesus had not gone to the cross yet, we have the opportunity of salvation now along with the word, and prayer so we have it made!

Faith can make us whole!  It was her faith that healed her and my faith can also heal me.  He is patient with us because He knows us, He understands our struggles and wants to help us with them.  Examine faith in your own lives and reach out and touch the hem (HIM) and He will heal you and help you be on your way, living your most authentic life!